Entry: couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show
Monday, July 16, 2012

The sad part is that they are calling me to see when the party will be and it's already happened. I try to avoid it, but I am always caught in the middle of a situation that is out of my control.  If I do anything I'm asked not to, I lose my chance of seeing her.  Then, I'm put on the spot and can't lie so I'm left feeling sad for the choice I had to make.  It broke my heart to hear the disappointment in my sister's voice. She says that she isn't upset with me but I know that she can't help but feel put off.   I am not making the rules. I'm just doing what it takes to remain in daughter's life.  I am sure on some level, I'm resented for it but I had to make a decision long ago that at all costs, she comes first and that's what I have to focus on.  We will all have to answer for our wrongdoings at the end of the day. I just hope that what I'm doing isn't the wrong thing, just what's best for her.

   2 comments

Ute
July 17, 2012   05:28 AM PDT
 
That's gotta be tough. It is hard being stuck in the middle like that, for sure.

Hey, I left a message in the chat box, I'm not getting any email notifications when you update here, even though I subscribed.
Blogdrive is so buggy, one of the reasons I stopped blogging here. :o/
Deirdre
July 17, 2012   03:49 PM PDT
 
Definitely hard to always feel like someone is going to be disappointed in the choices you make.

Regarding BD, I'm sure it's a glitch. Kirk isn't receiving them either but I've heard that they are trying to restore Blogdrive to how it was before the spammer take over and whatnot so hopefully soon, all of that will be resolved. :)

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